Random thoughts on life as it is right now!

Okay, so I really just wanted to post some pictures of our Kody ... just because :)

I know, I'm a proud mamma :)

You know it is amazing, 2 months ago I did not think he could get any more adorable, a month ago while I was in Ghana I did not think he could get any more adorable, a week ago I did not think he could get any more adorable ... okay, I think you get the point :)

THANK YOU Jesus for our amazing new son! THANK YOU Jesus that you somehow deemed us worthy and that you gave us the sacred priviledge of being his parents!

As I'm getting my energy back, my brain is catching up with everything that happened! It is catching up with the fact that I had typhoid fever and was in the hospital for 6 days! It is catching up with, quite honestly, how HORRIBLE it was (the symptoms)! In a lot of ways the most difficult part though was that I got to the point where I was completely helpless, I could not even sit up by myself, nor could I breathe on my own! I have never felt this completely out of control before in my life! And during it all I did not see my children, except for one visit from Bella! The reason really behind this was that I did not want to scare them with how I looked! Oh my heart goes out for people who live with illnesses every day of their lives, and especially moms who daily fear that they might scare their children because of the pain/illness/disease they are living with! In the midst of my seemingly "VERY EVENTFUL" life right now, my brain is full of introspection and reflection! I have SO MUCH to be thankful for!!
One of the worship songs at church this past weekend had these words, "I'm free to breathe, I'm free to live!" Oh wow, do these words have new meaning to me!

"'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9

"They that WAIT UPON the Lord WILL RENEW their strength; they will mount up on wings like eagles; they shall run and NOT grow weary; and they shall walk and NOT be faint!! Isaiah 40:31

These scripture takes on life, like never before!

Although quite honestly, this also really does describe the WAITING UPON THE LORD during the last several months, the WAITING for Kody to come home!

"My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord.'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

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Okay ... so my life as it is right now! There are things happening, things which I'm not ready to share! Today was such an eventful day (and yesturday), and I'm not talking about how I drove Faith (and Matteus and Kody) 2 hours to go to an appointment at Childrens! It all really went well, and Faith has her next surgery in 2 weeks! YAHOO that the surgery is not 3 months out, we so just want her surgeries to be done, really for her sake!

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I SO don't understand God's plans ... although the last year has re-taught me to trust them! So although things feel a bit out of control right now (the kids and Sam and I are doing GREAT), I have total peace! Sam and I are walking through a door, unsure of really what will happen! We are walking through a door that I honestly NEVER thought we would walk through! And we are walking through a door that quite honestly, God already whispered to me in January of this year letting me know what was ahead, but I honestly didn't know if to believe it back them!

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Okay, so I'm being TOTALLY vague I know ...

In a few weeks I'll let you know what happened ...

THANK YOU Jesus that you have an AMAZING plan for each one of us! THANK YOU for that you love each one of us PASSIONATELY and UNCONDITIONALLY!!!! THANK YOU Jesus for that You KNOW all of the details, and everything that lies ahead, and you have our lives in the palm of your hands!